Learning To Step Out On Faith
What does it mean to really step out on faith? Honestly I'm still learning this concept in my late 20's. I never thought I would ever question where would I be at this moment in time. I honestly thought that I would have me a regular career job, and finally be able to be a published author that I have always dreamed about since I was 15 years old. Instead you are wondering how has a 28 end up with two jobs without a piss in [Thank you Melanie Barnett-Davis].
Learning to step out on faith really had me wonder why I'm comparing the desires of my heart to everybody else in their situation. It's like I'm just this fly on the wall and I thinking where will my turn come. I don't ever take for granted what God has done for me, I just get really restless and have doubt that He actually forgot my hopes and dreams and I'm just stuck in this time period. I don't want to be stuck in this and nether do you OneSelfers. I try to understand why I'm not good enough for people or for a job or anything that i can contribute to this world. It;s like they are afraid to see what I can do with the beat of my drums. Better yet what can you do with the beat of your drums.
I remember back in Fall 2009 when I was in my third year at Fresno State and I wanted to study abroad, mind you this was something that I laughed about because this [study abroad] wasn't going to happen. Stop making fetch happen people! Anyways, I remember telling a family member that I wanted to. This family member tried their hardest to talk me out of it and tell me to wait next year. I honestly had my mind made up and my faith on the line. I boldly stated, "God told me that I was meant to study abroad". At 20 years old, that was faith. Come to think of it, that girl right there... eight and a half years ago took a chance and had faith when one person tried to tell her no. I actually wanted to study for the whole summer, but I was only able to fund only half the summer. That was okay because I had faith, courage and the determination to do so,
What is next? Do I still keep waking up and keep living the same life over and over again like that Bill Murray film Groundhog Day, or do I change the channel? Do I apply for the jobs in the outside cities, or for a different state? What is holding you back? What is keeping you in this place? Why can't you go take the risk and go out on faith? Do you think you would fail? Honestly, I failed to many times and somehow have the battle wounds to tell the tale.
I wonder what would that 20 year old could say to me eight and a half years later to me about having faith? I know she hasn't left me. She started my journey into the faith of taking chances in life in the early 20's. Now what I got to do is finished it out. What about you OneSelfers, where are you at in your life that you really question your faith about doing the unthinkable? Are you like me in your 20's, 30's 40's, etc? Stepping out on faith is some of the most hardest things to do in a season that you wished that can end., You will get anxious and you will become super impatient, it happens. Or you will get those cliché talks you would hear the mothers on the Mother's Board say "Just pray baby! Give it to God!" Or my favor from God, Himself, "Really Jazzman, If only you knew if you have faith in Me which I know you do."
Don't be afraid to go out on faith. It's just like when a baby bird is finally leaving the nest an has to learn how to fly. Everytime that he bird almost its the ground the mommy bird catch the baby in time. I'm learning now that I need to take the risk and just jump! Just jump OneSelfers! And you know why? Because if you have faith He would catch you and be able to get you not only back to safety, but also have you try again so that you are able to learn how to use the faith that is in your heart. Ans besides... He knows how to get you to land safely. Until next time OneSelfers, keep the faith and do what makes you happy.
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